The sound of falling shackles

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But I got chains and you got wings

Angels were never meant to fall And you were the loveliest of all If I thought God could fix this, I’d pray for your forgiveness

Natalia Kills

From the blog: Dating a psychopath

This link ( http://www.dailymotion.com/video/xu2udi_when-louis-theroux-met-jimmy-saville_news#.UWdq7qLqmzg) is a good documentary with Louis Theroux. In this video all the classic character traits of a charismatic sociopath can be seen.

The truth about Jimmy Saville did not come out fully until after his death. He was a very celebrity in the UK, and operated behind his mask of charisma for decades. This is a really good video. Unfortunately I can no longer find this on youtube. 

More about her

2012-08-10 17.11.06
Amadeus  He never returned the cat after he got him. I never got the chance to say goodbye.

It`s actually quite sad that psychopaths/sociopaths never (?) can experience the range of feelings we have. People with shackles who are freed, can truly live in every way. Many psychopaths have no meanings in their lives, because without feelings, everything is flat. Its sad really, but they have to help themselves. It can`t be family or their lover. The people closest to us, don`t have the necessary distance that people must have to handle it. Am I a sociopath? (part 1) from the blogger in: 

Sociopath World

A reader of the blog to the sociopath, asks about how it is to be a sociopath. Here follows the answer:

Hello. I think I might be a sociopath, but I’m not sure. I don’t have a conscience per se, it’s more like a logical guide for what is right and wrong. Nothing turns my stomach, no type of immoral behavior enrages me unless I’m on the receiving end. All of my responses, even my “emotional” responses, are calculated and performed. I know I’m not the smartest person on the planet–VERY WELL, but I feel it. As far as my heart and soul are concerned, there is nobody smarter on this planet, even though the very mind in question knows that’s not the case. I use people when I can, so long as it doesn’t hurt them in the process. I’m not sure if that’s because I don’t want to hurt people or because I’d like to believe I’m not manipulative. Generally speaking, I don’t lie about anything except for my feelings. But I don’t go out of my way to hurt people. I actually go out of my way NOT to hurt people. Pretty much my entire life IS an act, and I don’t really know who I am… but I’m definitely not normal, nor do I fit all of the negative aspects of the sociopath stereotype. What does this sound like to you? I’m asking because as much as I’m able to make sense of the world around me, I cannot for the life of me make sense of myself. That is the one thing that my mind can’t penetrate. I can state facts about what I do, what I don’t do, my habits and tendencies, etc, but trying to form an opinion about myself is like walking through a minefield of self-deception and convenient stray thoughts.

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15 thoughts on “The sound of falling shackles

    NIKOtheOrb said:
    September 20, 2013 at 18:18

    Perhaps the writer is without ego and therefore unable to “define” one’s self? Often those without ego can not find inner definition nor external definition from the external world. This does not necessarily make one a sociopath, only seemingly so, as that is the label society can place upon such beings who do not have a social mask.

      mirrorgirl responded:
      September 20, 2013 at 18:24

      I wonder if there are “real” psychopaths out there. I am curious if not all could feel if they could get the right treatment. Psychopaths/Narcissist, often have problems with negative feelings, often because no limits were set, so they never learnt how to handle them. It scares them so much, and if they have other underlying issues or are vulnerable, that might result that they learn to never feel until they never can anymore. Don`t know if you`ve seen the post “Can psychopaths switch their empathy on?” yet?

        NIKOtheOrb said:
        September 21, 2013 at 11:02

        No, I don’t think I have, but I will check out that post.

    Natalya said:
    September 20, 2013 at 18:42

    Perhaps the reader has Asperger’s or is on the Autism spectrum.

      mirrorgirl responded:
      September 20, 2013 at 18:43

      interesting comment, because she has actually said something about that: Might psychopaths really be Asperger`s, but with their main interest in people and not train schedules? You`ll find it on her blog:)

        Natalya said:
        September 20, 2013 at 18:48

        Really? Okay, I will check her blog out 🙂

        I don’t think all people with Asperger’s are psychopaths though. Many are quite caring in their own way and simply lack understanding of others’ emotions yet don’t try to intentionally hurt people.

        mirrorgirl responded:
        September 20, 2013 at 19:00

        I wonder if psychopaths could be able to, also. Look at the links on my post. One is called “can psychopaths turn empathy on and off?”, but many have choosen “off” because it feels safer. I have worked with some of them and they have now started to really change, and the only thing they want to do, is help others.

        Natalya said:
        September 20, 2013 at 19:17

        Wow, that’s cool they want to actually help others once they have been treated successfully. I never thought psychopaths possessed empathy to turn on or off so that’s interesting. I’ll read the post you suggest 🙂

      mirrorgirl responded:
      September 20, 2013 at 18:46

      My ex was really intelligent on a lot of other fields, and has some really great traits. He once said: “I decided I would not be shy anymore” and used every opportunity to “train” on what he should or shouldn`t say to make people laugh. But he never learnt how to handle natural negative emotions, and he says he is fine with that.

        Natalya said:
        September 20, 2013 at 18:53

        That’s interesting he was able to overcome his shyness like that. I am socially anxious but can’t just resolve to be more sociable and I’ve been in therapy for years-albeit for other more serious issues.

        mirrorgirl responded:
        September 20, 2013 at 18:59

        that`s because you`re not a psychopath 🙂 But you have to find the right therapist. Years do not matter if the therapist doesn`t help you. It can sometimes be hard to find a good match!

        Natalya said:
        September 20, 2013 at 19:14

        LOL, thanks 😉

        Yes, I know. In Canada it’s hard to stay with one therapist for a long time because insurance tends to only cover short-term therapy; unless you go private and can pay the fees for therapists outside the hospitals. When I was in university I had a psychologist who kindly saw me for two years every week sometimes. She was really kind but the number of sessions allotted to students was 8-10. I’m pretty sure I exceeded that many times over with her. I am grateful to her but am not in university now so have to pay for a counsellor. The counsellor I have now is okay. Options are limited though when you’re not wealthy enough to afford any therapist available 😦

        mirrorgirl responded:
        September 20, 2013 at 19:33

        Move to Norway:D

        Sendt fra min iPad

        Natalya said:
        September 20, 2013 at 19:35

        Good idea, lol 😀

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