The sound of shaking it off

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When changes are coming, my need to write blossoms like a seed in the ground. It has been there, all the time, but waiting. I don`t always like this waiting period. The days that just go on and on, with nothing new in them. I have never been good with routine, even when I need to feel safe.

Today I was on my second job interview. This interview was for a job I wanted even more than the last one, since it is in a part of Norway I have better vibes towards. I think the interview went well, since I actually got to say the things I wanted to tell them about. My burning desire to do something for people, my interest in holding lectures (that would be a huge part of the job) and my belief in preventive work.

When I drove home, I felt something growing inside me. The little seed, that has been sleeping the last weeks, got water and started to flourish. Right now I am working at a psychiatric ward, and there has been far too little to do there this last week. Mostly because we are many therapists, but also because doctors focus more on medication than just “talking”. Some days are really good, but it is not the same as where I worked before, at a unit where I had 5-6 patients a day, finding every conversation invigorating. Now there is meeting after meeting, and too few therapeutic processes. That`s why it felt so good to feel that soon I might do something I love again. A new chance to live and breathe psychology, and a new place to do it. The city I work in now, is filled with bad memories from my previous relationship, and I need a fresh start. I need to be me again.

huh-you-want-me-to-be-a-social-media-ambassador-24-638When I came home, I met my little brother. We decided we`d watch some episodes of “how I met your mother”, and made carrots with dip and pop-corn. He sat close to me, and we talked in between the episodes. He started to talk about school. that there was so much to do. A lot of homework, and that meant he had less time to do other things. He is really talented in many aspects, like drawing. Two years ago (he is now 16) I saw his first portrait. He had drawn a girl in his class, and I was shocked to discover that I could actually see the person he had been drawing. I asked him: “How did you do that?” And he answered: “I don`t know. I just did!”. I looked into his eyes, and told him to not use all his time on homework to get good grades, that what I regretted most from my years at school, was the unnecessary hours where I read and repeated something I forgot a week after the exam. That I rather should have used more time on my interests, or being social. Because life is not a rehearsal for something that might be better, it is all about the things you love doing here and now. So, now I feel like I found back to that piece of me that follows my heart, being the flower I prefer, not just someone else`s wallflower.

So, I will shake off my old self and start walking on a new path in my life. And I really look forward to it.

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12 thoughts on “The sound of shaking it off

    Kimberly Rae Jewell said:
    November 14, 2015 at 03:32

    Thank you Mirrorgirl, for the sweet charming Taylor Swift video, but for your honesty too. I’m a hypnotherapist and now have my own practice and get to do exactly the work I choose with people. I adore it. Keep blogging. I’m listening.

      mirrorgirl responded:
      November 14, 2015 at 08:28

      Thank you for your comment! Tell me more about what you do as a hypnotherapist, as I know little about it! Excited that you love what you do, that’s what counts.

    Anthony Turi said:
    November 14, 2015 at 07:29

    A big YES! to you and this blog post.

      mirrorgirl responded:
      November 14, 2015 at 08:26

      Thank you! How are you?

        Anthony Turi said:
        November 15, 2015 at 17:22

        I’m good thank you. Busy with teaching, family and training. But I always make sure I find time to keep up with your wonderful blog! 🙂

        mirrorgirl responded:
        November 20, 2015 at 09:44

        I am glad that you are good, must be exciting times with your family, and I know you try to live your life to the fullest! I truly appreciate that you read my blog! Have a wonderful weeknd 🙂

    awax1217 said:
    November 14, 2015 at 07:30

    I still am learning. I guess when the desire to learn ends we draw back into the cocoon and morph into the coma of non existence. I think you might get a kick out of the cricket story I wrote a day or so ago. Give it a read and let me know what you think. Barry

      mirrorgirl responded:
      November 14, 2015 at 08:27

      I think you are absolutely right! Is the story on your blog?

        awax1217 said:
        November 14, 2015 at 12:16

        Yes it is, last couple of days. Now here is the real rub. Yes there was a cricket and the one put it outside. But it was not eaten by the crow. I wanted to see the reaction to the story that it was eaten. All of the people I told the story to laughed. They laughed because of the paradox of doing good and the result was disaster. Interesting.

    samanthacarasjournal said:
    November 15, 2016 at 18:34

    So nicely written. Shaking off someone’s old self must be very tough. I am trying my best to shake off some small part of me, but did not succeed.

      mirrorgirl responded:
      November 15, 2016 at 20:29

      Then maybe you can try again? facing challenges is the only way to grow and learn.

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