The sound of multiples

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20140531-013044-5444914.jpgSometimes I want to so everything at once and my Mac just won’t do it. I’m no Mac expert, but I usually love the products. Right now, I don’t. I wanted to upload some pictures I’ve taken lately, and started the OpenOffice program at the same time. I also hit the ‘pages’ button, but apparently my silver friend is trying to tell me I should take it easy. In moments like these I remember other similiar instances : ‘Slow down, Nina’. It’s like I’m always in a hurry, and I expect everything around me to do the same. I shouldn’t need technology to tell me this isn’t always advisable. I can give people countless examples: I’ve locked my car-key inside the car four times! One time when I did that, my luggage was inside and my plane left in 20 minutes.

I’ve sprinkled my collages with ideas as fresh and confusing as a newborn chicken. I’ve managed to delete long emails that I didn’t take the time to save before it. I’ve tried to slow down, but with slower pace comes slower motivation. It’s like I need the surge of energy to fuel my behavior. When I finally slow down I sit down with books and don’t produce much. I need this, too. But I also need the tempo. I need the eagerness and glee when I do something I’m excited about, and as long as I always take time to plan and contemplate, I’m fine.


Faces behind the mirror: The Oxymora of Me

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The Oxymora of Me


I’m many ways, I am a living oxymoron.  Many of my inherent personality traits consist of juxtaposed, seemingly contrary concepts.   Here are some examples:

I’m a rabble-rousing peacekeeper.

I like to ease conflict where I see it, but I’m not afraid to start an argument, either.  I believe some things are worth fighting for, and I don’t hesitate to throw myself into the brawl if I feel it will serve a larger purpose.  Still, if I can, I prefer to ease conflict where I see it, and create peace.

Where this is awesome: The corporate world.  I can hold my own, and make friends, at the same time.

Where this stinks: This blog. I want to keep the peace here, so I often tell the rabble-rouser to shush, which leads to days of silence.

I’m a minimalistic clutterbug.

I don’t put much value on material items.  I like the simple life and even when money was aplenty, I still used baking soda instead of about a hundred different products.  I see no real purpose in purchasing items just to purchase them or because of their name brand– and I love my multi-purpose goods.  Still, I like things.  I like to be surrounded by things. I like to see things in pictures, on desks, and in drawers.  I am most comfortable when there’s clutter to either side of me.

Where this is awesome:  Gain & Loss.  I maintain my happiness whether gaining stuff (I’m the easiest person in the world to gift to), or losing things (I’m the most chill person after a robbery or other such loss).

Where this stinks: Moving time.  I always end up with so much stuff.  Anything that wasn’t gifted to me ends up being tossed out, in the name of simplicity.

I’m a modern traditionalist.

I’m a traditionalist.  I write with pen and paper almost as much as I type, and my days are filled with life practices that date back centuries.  I believe in family and not letting phones get in the way of experiencing life.  I believe in the power of the spoken word– and the importance of skilled trade, and buying local, and open source.  But, I am also quite modern.  I like sleek design, e-books, and the amazing internet.

Where this is awesome: Art, from literature to paintings.  I love everything.

Where this stinks: Trying new things. I alternate between wanting to do things the old-fashioned way, and wanting to modernize things.   Either way, it’s a struggle to just… do.  At least when it’s still new.

I’m a private open book.

If you ask me a question involving only my privacy– any question– I will answer it honestly.  Really and truly.  Experiences, preferences, habits, thoughts– financial, sexual, career, childhood– whatever.  But you have to ask.  I don’t volunteer real information out all that often.  I don’t know why.  It’s just how I am.

Where this is awesome: Friendships.  People are always learning new things about me.

Where this stinks: Friendships. People are always hurt that they were the last to know something.

I’m a pessimist of faith.

I call Dave an optimistic cynic, and I’ve met a few of those folk around the web, too. (Hey, Duncan.)  I’m the opposite. I’m a pessimist of faith.  I’m a believer and I have an abundance of faith in you, and me, and the world.  But let’s just say I’m not surprised when things fall to pieces.  My little sister says that I’m always so happy to see the sun rise because I’m the sort of person who goes to sleep thinking it might not.

Where this is awesome: Worst case scenario planning.  I’m a pro.  I believe in us, so I know all our possibility– but I’m quite adept at quickly identifying all the ways we could hurl ourselves towards quick and final disaster.

Where this stinks: Best case scenario planning.  I’m just glad no one, including myself, required my assistance in wedding planning.  My last input into my own wedding before I was sent to a different room was, “What if the monk is allergic to calla lillies and needs emergency care? Is Urgent Care open on the day after Christmas?”


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Five facts about reading

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At the moment I`m trying to buy an apartment, and naturaly have many butterflies fluttering around whenever I think about it. Luckily, I have my weapon of choice at hand: My audiobooks. You see, reading is the best antidote for frantic nerve-cells. Today, I finished “the examined life” and absolutely loved it (a brilliant therapist writing about his patients), and like expected it brought some relief from the pre-house excitement. It will come back, surely, but I`m fine with that. We all need a rollercost ride every now and then, don`t we?


Merry Christmas

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I have not had time to sit down and write a proper post in far too long, and must confess I miss it. Writing has been a solace to me the last year, and I have loved to write about my thoughts and ideas. Many have said they appreciate my posts about psychology, and I will work with enhancing the quality in addition to focus on interesting content in the future.

I also want to work more on my project kindness. The idea is to encourage people to do one kind act every week, preferably to a stranger. My attitude is that we have to focus on

positive behavior if we want changes

If we see others doing good things, we will be inspired to be good ourselves.

With that, I want to say merry Christmas to everyone! Enjoy the time with people you care about, and be sure to appreciate it. For those who have a tough time, I hope you still focus on what’s good in life ❤



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Happy waiting

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The Joys of Waiting

I hate waiting. Most people I know hate waiting. Life is full of waiting: we wait for loved ones to come home, we wait for movies to start, we wait in lines at groceries, banks, or the DMV. We wait to hear the results of tests at school, and the results of tests about our health.  Right now my love is waiting to find out if a new job will come through, unable to make commitments until he a5bf950448372b7a778f89216c198160does. As writers, we wait for the muse to strike, we wait to hear back about a submission, we wait to see if anyone will discover our work, and we wait to learn if they love it as we do. All this waiting creates an often excruciating sense of anticipation, anxiety, or dread. It puts us in a state of suspended animation, of limbo: we understand, while in this limbo, why Dante used that term to describe the experience of being in neither Heaven nor Hell, of being profoundly uncertain of where one will wind up.

So, in an exercise of deep spiritual dedication, I thought I’d better come up with the top ten joys of waiting. You know, turn this thing on its head. Take a deep breath (well, maybe not if you’re waiting in line at the DMV) and find what we can love about limbo.

Top Ten Joys of Waiting

10. Any waiting room, anywhere, can serve as an object lesson in how NOT to decorate a room for the comfort and pleasure of its occupants.

9. The “take a number” machine reminds you of your first trip to Baskin-Robbins Thirty-One Flavors as a kid. (Oh, would there be any Bubble Gum or Peppermint Stick ice cream left by the time it was your turn?)

8. The conversation you eavesdrop on while in line provides excellent inspiration for dialogue between the two least-educated characters in your work-in-progress.

7. In an hour spent staring at your toes, you are taken on an emotional journey from rejection to acceptance, from “my toes are hideous!” to “I kind of like my left pinkie toe” to “my toes are beautiful, just the way they are.”

6. You finally have time to read your friends’ Facebook posts. (Although you regret, deeply and forever, looking up “twerk” on YouTube, as your friend recommended.)

5. You realize you have a great excuse to say “no” to invitations to upcoming events you were dreading anyway. “No, I’m sorry, I’m still waiting to hear about [fill in the blank], and I’d hate to take up someone else’s spot at your third cousin’s bat mitzvah, the one with the Klezmer Captain and Tennille cover band, only to have to cancel on you at the last minute.”

man4. You realize you have a great excuse not to start cleaning the bathroom, because that phone call might come any minute, and you can’t answer the phone with your hands covered in Comet.

3. The anxiety from waiting gives you the energy to organize the hall closet. (Hey, your partner/roommate/kid can take that giant garbage bag of stuff to Goodwill. You’re done, you’ve earned a cold beer/dish of ice cream/nap.)

2. You make up six new verses to “American Pie.” In your waiting-induced mild psychosis, you think they’re better than the original.

1. Suddenly, a voice cuts through all the fear, anxiety, anticipation, or dread, and reminds you of everything you have to be grateful for, right in this moment: the ability to breathe, to worry, to create lists, to laugh, and to love.

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The versatile Blogger Award

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Yesterday I was on a board-game tournament when I wanted to just check my blog, as I have become a real blog-addict lately. I love blogging, since I am fond of writing and find it very calming when I am upset. When I logged in this time, there was a pleasant surprise waiting. One of my readers had included me in the The Versatile Blogger Award ( I feel truly honored, since there is so many blogs out there, and I`m not even a native speaker, so I have discovered a lot of really horrible spelling mistakes and grammatical errors afterwards


Now, I am excited to pass on this award by nominating fifteen wonderful bloggers.  Please see the rules and more information about the award by visiting The Versatile Blogger.  When you get the award, there are some rules to read through.


VBA Rules


If you are nominated, you’ve been awarded the Versatile Blogger award.

  •  Thank the person who gave you this award. That’s common courtesy.
  •  Include a link to their blog. That’s also common courtesy — if you can figure out how to do it.
  •  Next, select 15 blogs/bloggers that you’ve recently discovered or follow regularly. ( I would add, pick blogs or bloggers that are excellent!)
  •  Nominate those 15 bloggers for the Versatile Blogger Award — you might include a link to this site.
  •  Finally, tell the person who nominated you 7 things about yourself.

Since I got the award, I have to tell 7 things about myself to the person who nominates me.

I am not sure what my blogger-friend would like to know, but I guess I will focus on things I haven`t written before.

1. I am extremly clumsy. This is not an exaggeration, since even my patients have laughed about me in surprise of the degree of my slippery hands.

2. One of my dreams is to see the Taj Mahal

3. I love raspberries

4. I love travelling, and have been in many countries

5. In every country and city I go to, I buy a magnet with the countries name on, and put them on my refrigerator

6. I hate walking on rugs without socks

7. I have phobia against somebody drawing blood out of my body and always look away when people do

My nominees (in random order)

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1. Rose with Thorns. The wonderful girl who nominated me. Thanks so much for the award, and I like your posts too!

2. Ajaytao2010. I have been following this blogger for a long time and can recommend his posts:)

3.  . ashokbhatia

A man from India who has family in Norway, and contacted me through the blog. I am extremly fond of travelling and meeting people from other cultures, and have especially found I like the Indian culture.

4. awax1217 or You are a man I have come to really appreciate. You have given me feedsback I truly appreciate, and I have had the chance to read the first chapter of a really interesting crime novel that I look forward to read more about.

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6. KINDNESS BLOG. A blog sharing small happy stories. Love it!

The true story about the author Salvadore. Over these years he went through a process of dissociation and reintegration, which no doubt, led to insights he later used to create the Eos Kernel. Since I am interested in dissociation, this is an interesting blog for me.

6. Sociopath World. One of the most interesting blogs I have encountered so far. It is written by a sociopath, who is very intelligent but honest about it. She deserves respect for spreading information, because this will potentially help others. She has chosen to do good, in spite of her “disorder” and

7.brokenbutbeingrepaired. I simply love this blogger already. She writes about her private pain, which is in itself admirable, but she also writes good! I often sit with tears in my eyes after reading her story. Its brutal and honest.

the daily headache. I know she gets a lot of rewards, but she really deserves it, too. She knows so much, and I have learnt a lot about people, respecting their histories, and how important it is to keep on fighting, even when you feel half-dead. Thank you, Ashana. I hope you find true happiness whereever you go.

9.Random Acts of Kindness. The title sais it all. 

10 DBT Selfhelp. Lot of important information about self-help

11 nerd on the bridge. I like her sci-fi intelligence. Even if my brain can`t always keep up with her native english and language jokes, I still love her the same 🙂

12 About the Weird: This is really a funny and well-written blog. I love his style, his obvious underlying intelligence, and his ability to make the tragic a bit entertainable, so that the reader don`t feel completely overwhelmed and hopeless about the world. Thank you for sharing high-quality content, over and over again 😀

13.Gabriel Lucatero. I have worked together with this blogger, with sucess. He has written and published his own books, and I am really proud of him! Thank you for sharing !

14.A Bipolar Journey Through The Rabbit Hole. A lot of important information and quality posts here!

15. Crazy In The Coconut. I LOVE HER! She publishes so  many important and brilliant posts.  She suffers from DID and I wish I could take the pain away, but she fights like a pro, and she will continue that way for sure! Big hugs


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