The room is warmed up by summer air. I have one foot outside the duvet, and wake up to a voice next to me.
“What is it?”
“My shoulder hurts”. I pat it carefully and say softly:
“You will dream that it gets better”. He falls asleep.
A little later:
“I had a dream”
I smile, prepared for it.
“There was a man, who wanted to eat all the nuts you had!”
“I tried to stop him, but he was very determined, and I could only save half of them”. In my head, I have already made a mental picture of this stubborn man, eating the nuts in a hurry, not letting himself be stopped by any intervention. My picture is silenced by the last detail of the dream:
” He even drank my juice!”
He shakes his head in disbelief, and I squeeze his hand.
We drift into sleep again.
When I come down, my cashew nuts are truly much fewer in number than yesterday.
Right now I have a brand new feeling inside me. It`s like packing out strange food covered with plastic, revealing a smell that is unfamiliar and exciting. I got the same feeling of strangeness when I ate fried bananas and ice cream for the first time. First I did not know if I liked the taste, because it was so completely different from anything I`d tried before.
I can feel the newness of this new feeling it in my stomach and throat, but have not been able to label it yet. It comes from strange coincidences (or faith?) connected to the theme flying (I`ve always dreamt about flying, it has been one of the few recurring dreams I have, but usually when I can`t control it). The song I present might convey some of what I`m trying to say:
Kate Earl- Learning to fly
It seems like faith has lifted me
I can’t seem to keep my feet on the ground
I no longer hide
So i let the sun wash over me
Cause there’s no darkness left
To hold me down
And i feel it’s light
Now i found the spark
That was missin in my life
I earned these wings
I was not born with them
and it’s no accident
How i walked through
The rain and the fire
Lyrics from eLyrics.net
- Kate Earl (music2benoticed.wordpress.com)
- Flying (focusedandfree.com)
- Recurring Dreams (simplylilacs.wordpress.com)
- Fly (missaprillynn.wordpress.com)